not again

the wheels in my head are moving about a million miles per minute. i have so much i wanna say and don't know where to start. but damn...why does it seem like when something good happens something bad has to happen too.

i'm excited..yet feel bad for being excited
i'm sad...yet feel bad for feeling sad
i don't think i'm selfish...
but i really thought my day would be able to be simply a happy one this time.

it's like deja vu...


just trying to keep the faith.