reflections of you

i had fallen
so deep i couldn't see the top of the hole i had dug myself in and
in the end
you weren't there to pull me out

then i saw a glimmer of light through a hole you cut
in my heart
so i clawed myself out

i filled the hole and built a wall
made of glass
so i could look back and see you
but not
walk through

and onward i marched
until one day i was too far to see through the glass wall
and you
were just a blur

and now i see
me.