Good one

I wouldn't make a decision with a man in mind...
But, if I did,
This man might be the kind.

hurry up and wait

Waiting.
Waiting to see a loved one
Waiting to see a new movie
Waiting for that amazon box in the mail
Waiting for food to be done
Waiting for a goodnight kiss...
these I can handle.
Waiting, for news-
news that can potentially be good
or potentially bad,
this,
I am no good at.

just need to get it out.

I see her lips moving,
but I stopped listening several sentences ago.
I guess it was the minute I saw the tears behind her eyes,
the ones her smile was supposed to hide...
that's when I knew I wasn't going to like what she had to say.
And him...
when a man so strong turns weak,
it's hard to keep it together.
But they are,
and I am.
and it's going to be fine.
the waiting, and wondering
that's always the hard part.


I know she's looking down on me.

Time runs out.

I've spent enough time waiting
Wondering
(Hoping?)
Was this secretly my reason?
Sometimes we keep secrets so well,
That we don't even know them ourselves.
But how long can you hold onto nothing?
Especially when there may be something,
That could be everything...

I know I said I would, but...

I can't do it...
after all these years,
I can't be so insignificant.
And I can't go back in time...
the reality is your hers,
you were never really mine.


[let me ride into the sunset]

and why shouldn't I?

I've been whispering too long...
the anticipated absence is like a freedom,
and suddenly I'm all about screaming.

Today...

my horoscope tells me:

"Even if you don't think you are skilled at creative writing, write your ideas down.

It has been said that the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results -- which is probably why you feel as though you're going crazy. One of your relationships is going through some turmoil, and the two of you seem to be dealing with the same issue over and over again. So try a different approach -- it's the only way you'll get different results. Think of other ways to communicate. Writing your thoughts down will help you get clarity."

I think it may be on to something...