i deserve better

I am tired.
You expect me to be there for you
While
She expects you to be there for her
And
What can I expect?

I am tired.
You want me there,
But
Only when you want me there,
While
Any other time you couldn't care, less

I am tired.
I hate you, almost as much as I love you
You drive me crazy
But
You love me
Its a beautiful...
Friendship

I am tired.
I am no one's almost someone,
I am no ones only sometimes.
I am tired.
I am someone's one-sided want-
My heart doesn't always listen to my mind.
I am tired.